To recap, I am writing a song to that is about my emotion while transitioning from Civil Engineering to IDM.
I was able to record my voice and put it against my guitar recording to see how it sounded. I would like to work more on making sound better(higher quality) or maybe just keep it like this and add some other instruments to the track to make it more dynamic.
I would like to film something this week, so I can get a sense of where I am at. I would like to see if I would like to fix anything, or even record again.
I thought about what me and Nick talked about writing a book to go with my project. This is also very daunting, but it is necessary just to explain. My song can't tell the audience everything and there might be a lot I would like to say, so I started to layout what I would like in this book. I also thought about what Fiorabella wrote last week. About the imposter syndrome. That is me. I switch from a Major that was so far off from what IDM. So I felt kind of lost, but free at the same time because I wasn't stuck in a bubble where people expected some kind of crazy career goal from me. Something that I wouldn't be happy with.
I want to be a UX Designer, but do I really have those skills and projects/experience to back that up. So after my thoughts this is what I came up with:
I work in Human Resources currently and I have been for the past two years. It is not just any regular HR department but the Main HR for Tandon. Higher Education HR is pretty stressful, and I know it's not something I want to do in the future. BUT UX is about people and how they can interact with products or people. I have been working in that intersection of how people interact with certain things already. I AM that facilitator, I help the interaction between departments and staff to be efficient. I helped onboard people, I also worked on planning events for the staff, and also working with other departments to help them in their HR work. I have all the knowledge already.
I also worked at a deli. I was paid $7 an hour, granted it was like 4 years ago, BUT STILL. I worked 1 summer for 6 days a week, and 10 hours a day. Standing up, and making sandwiches. Dealing with customers, face to face. I helped their experience getting breakfast or lunch be enjoyable and fast.
I also worked in a relative's Jewelry wholesale company that supplies retailers in NYC. I worked a warehouse job, where I moved boxes around. But still I helped the deliveries going out and coming in be more efficient by organizing parts of the warehouse so that we could see what product were where clearer and also so that the other employees could move around easily. I also helped personally check hundreds of items one by one for any flaws so that our customers wouldn't receive anything bad.
Course in Civil Engineering weren't useless. I am still going to use math in the future, and can even help my children or nieces and nephews with their work. I know I am not going to use all my knowledge from Engineering in the future, but still I used some programming knowledge to help in my courses at IDM. It helped me discover what I like, and even though I did regret "wasting" a bit of my time at undergrad, it wasn't a waste. I still have time.
Even though I do feel rushed, I still have time. That's the important thing. People discover who they are and what they want at different paces. I am in that stage. People go through that stage. And I don't care to be compared or discouraged because someone else that is the same age as me already has set goals or some crazy job lined up for them in the next year. I just need to do me and that's good enough. I am learning to be happy right where I am, what makes me happy and also what makes me me.
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